The calm "after" the storm

The last time I posted I was in a bad place. I was very angry and upset about not having a court date yet. While I am still upset about that I have been able to move past it, for now, and see the bigger picture- A.J. will be home with us forever before we know it. She will be in our family for the rest of our lives and I have a lifetime to smother her with hugs and kisses. Now, don't get me wrong I still want her home asap and cannot wait until the day that we get to meet her, but for now I have to remain calm and carry on. Sigh....Mommy loves you baby girl! -Mommy 2 be


(sorry about the Corona image posted on this picture...if I could take it off I would.)

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down...

It's a bitter sweet day. It's been two months since we received our referral and are still waiting for a court date. A.J. is nearing 6 months old and we miss her more and more. I love my baby girl, but today is a little hard to take in.


I do want to give thanks to a special family, despite this hard day. If it were not for the Zimmer family and their little Addia we would not be writing this blog to say the least. I can't remember now what holiday it was when we received an email from them, but we saw Addia's face for the first time in this email. It was such a beautiful little face that we just kind of looked at it for a few minutes without saying a word. Michael, my husband, then turned to me and said "I think they adopted her from Ethiopia"...I just looked at him and said " we should ask them about adopting from Ethiopia". We were in the midst of trying to conceive with no luck despite infertility treatments and had thought about adoption in the past. Little did we know that this email would change our lives. Within a few months we were sending in our application to adopt an infant girl from Ethiopia. Without that email we may never have thought of IA. It was such a blessing to receive that email in such a time of pain. Addia may never know how she changed our lives with just a simple email, but she has and we cannot thank her and her family,the Zimmer's, enough!! Thanks to them we now have a sweet little girl half way across the world. We owe them more thanks than we can ever say. Thank you Zimmer's! -Mommy 2 be

5.6 months...almost 6 months!

Well we finally got an update today with a picture and medical info. She looks like a little old lady! She is getting bigger and bigger!! The strange thing is she looks chunky but her medical says she is actually only in the 5th percentile or a little less. I don't know if this is right or not but the numbers seem much lower than they should be. She looks big for her age to us..hmmm...who knows lol. Can't wait to see her, whenever that will be. -Mommy 2 be

tears, tears and more tears

Well I had to blog about my frustration and sadness...we continue to wait for a court date, despite the many other families who have been receiving court dates. I am to believe that their paperwork was submitted after ours, but I never can know for certain. I know there is nothing I can do, but it hurts to see so many others with a set date and we are still here in limbo. I feel as though we should have received a date already, but who's to know how things are done over there. It's easy to say how things should be regarding adoption but who really knows what they do from day to day? I don't...I hate having no control. This is my little girl we are talking about and I have no say in anything right now. My fingers are crossed that we will receive a court date for June or July...my fingers are very crossed for that! -Keep us in your thoughts as we continue to wait. -Mama 2 be.

One giant leap for us!!

Here are photos of A.J.'s crib...please ignore everything around the crib lol. The items in the crib will be moved once she is home, so do not get alarmed people. Oh and our paperwork has been "subbmitted to court" and we are now simply waiting for a court date!!! Our fingers are crossed that it is this summer! -Mom to be!

Chunk-A-Munk

Well we got an updated picture today, still no picture with her care package in it but maybe that will come later. She is growing and changing everyday. She is a little chunky girl! We are so glad she is healthy right now and looks like she is well taken care of. Boy do we love that little girl!! Hopefully we can post pictures soon; if we get a court date that is!! -Mommy to Be!!

That's my daughter in the water...everything she knows I taught her...

Ok well it's now been close to 2 months since we received our referral!!! I wanted to wait to post the story of our referral day until we had a court date, but now with all the changes in Ethiopia that could be a while. So- here it goes- March 4th I had emailed Radu and just wanted to check in and see if there was any news for us; I had figured it was a long shot seeing as how it had only been 3 or 4 months since our dossier was registered. Radu responded on Sunday March 6th and said "no bother at all....WE DO HAVE THIS REFERRAL FOR YOU!!!"

Of course Michael was out doing his normal run and wouldn't answer his phone...I had to wait 30 minutes unitl he came home to look?? No way! So I called him again and he answered like this "what???!!" me-"come home we have a referral!" I was pretty much in tears and then he said " Ok, sniff sniff" He was already crying lol.

When he got home we turned on our camera and recorded the first time we ever saw her face! She was 3, almost 4, months at the time we received her pictures. She had the sweetest little face and beautiful brown eyes. She was and still is absolutly gorgeous!! We instantly fell in love with her!!

The next step was to tell the family. We don't have any patience, so we called them all over immediatly. Of course, Paula- Michael's mom- was out of town :( And my dad was beyond asleep :( My mother and michael's dad were awake and alert so they came right over! The fell in love with her too and we found out all together that A.J (the name we will give our baby girl)has the same birthday as Michael's grandfather that passed away recently. The J in her name stands for Juliana and his grandfathers name was Julian....so scary how it all came together!! She was also born on the same day that Michael and I became engaged (of course we have been married for almost 2 years, so not the same year but the same day we became engaged two years ago)....

We finally got Paula on the phone and told her the news!! She was super excited!! What was also scary was that a few years earlier some friends had found out the would be parents to a newborn baby boy here locally and Paula had to find out while she was out of town at the same event as she was at this time! It just seemed like everything had happened when it was supposed to. My father found out when he woke up the next morning and was very excited as well.

Now, the hard part begins and its a wait for a court date...we wait until we get to hold her for the first time...right now she is offically 5 months old- to the day- and I am sad that I'm missing these moments. I will miss her first smile and her first tooth...I hate missing things but I am glad to know that we will have her in our lives at some point and from then on out we will have several firsts of our own.

Everytime I look at her face I wonder what she's doing and how she's doing. I love this little girl more than anything and I would do anything for her. It's a great feeling knowing that we will soon be the parents of this little beauty!!

Please pray that we will get a quick and speedy court date!!! -Mommy to be!!