Ticking Time and Passing Days (Daddy Edition)

I hate waiting. I hate waiting for anything and everything. Megan has asked me over and over again to add my feelings to this blog. Never have these feelings been greater than during this time of waiting.

Today I logged into our Yahoo!Groups account for Adoption Avenues families. While I feel so much for and about this adoption process, putting these feelings into words is not always the easiest for me. That was until today. When perusing the Yahoo!Groups page, I came across a database of all of the families who are members of the Yahoo!Group. This database was incredible! It showed where the families were, when their dossier made it to DC, when the dossier made it to Ethiopia, etc. It was so refreshing to have some hard data to compare our journey against. To date, all that we have had is my good friend Jenna to bounce questions off of and to compare against. I immediately printed this database so we now have data to compare against. Megan will find it so funny to know that I found my emotions through the comparison data (guess that dissertation work has infected my brain so deeply that I only seem to respond to factual data at this point).

Let me say this: I absolutely cannot wait to see our daughter. I absolutely cannot wait for the referral email. I absolutely cannot wait to make our trips to that foreign country and to meet all those wonderful people who are either currently loving or will be loving the child who will come to be our daughter.

Let me also say this: I worry about numerous things because of this journey (money, time, what she will ask us when she starts talking, how to discipline her when she is teenager, etc.). None of these things detract me from the desire to get her home. I'm so glad that Megan and I WILL be parents.

796323526270 ....my new favorite numbers!

Ok,so I found out today that Ethiopia has our Dossier!!! I was not going to bug Radu, but my curiosity got the best of me and boy am I glad it did! I recieved a reply back that had the Fedex tracking number and said that Ethiopia had recieved our Dossier yesterday!! We are over the moon and finally told the rest of our family! It's so strange to think this could actually be happening! Keep your fingers crossed that all goes well and remember our chipin box!!! Thanks everyone for the kind messages!!!

WA Dc has our Dossier!!

So we know for sure that WA DC recieved our Dossier on Oct. 11th, however we do not know if they still have it or if it's being sent to Ethiopia. I am being realistic and assuming that WA DC still has it, but I am hoping it has been sent to Ethiopia. My Nanny, yes I call her Nanny not grandmother, has been in and out of the hospital now for a for a week or so and she is due to come stay with my parents. She is in her 80's, however she has never acted her age. I was going to wait to tell her until we were "officially" approved, but now that she is sick and what may happen to her is unknown I feel compelled to tell her. I hope and pray that she will be fine, however I want her to know what is going on. Something as important as this should be shared not kept a secret. I still feel strange telling people when nothing is 100% yet;I still feel like I might jinx it by saying it out loud, but I guess I need to just face my fears...hmmmm....ok here it goes!

Please remember our chipin box!! Little A.J. is not home yet and needs all the help she can get to become a part of the Miles family! Thanks everyone!

Only 13 days....sigh

Well it's only been 13 days since we've sent our dossier off and already I am anxious and tird of waiting. I know 13 days is nothing, but when you've been waiting your whole life for this little girl 13 days can seem like years. I guess now that I do not have paperwork to fill my time I need to start on the nursery. It's a scary thing for me to do, because the fear of the unknown still lingers and I am afraid to start something that may never come to be. I know this is what we were always meant to do, but having no control over it scares me to death. I am working on letting go and trusting that this will happen, but for now I am taking it one day at a time...and eventhough it's been 13 days past Dossier it hasn't gotten any better...haha.

Please remember our chipin box!! Little A.J. is not home yet and needs all the help she can get to become a part of the Miles family! Thanks everyone!

Our ChipIn donation box

Please help us bring home our little girl. We are in the final stages as we wait to see what our little A. J. looks like . I know it is tough in this economy to spend money at all, but we are asking for whatever you can give to help this little girl have a chance at a great life. Your donations will be taken with great appreciation and we will keep everyone posted as to how the process of A.J.'s adoption is going. Thanks so much! Keep A.J. in your thoughts and prayers please as well as those other little ones who are in Ethiopia waiting on thier forever families.

Dossier off!

Ok our agency recieved our Dossier on friday Oct. 1, 2010!!!